I posted this picture on my Facebook page yesterday. It's of a quote that's pinned on a wall in my office. I read that quote several times a week. Some days, I'm able to feel a sense of peace wash over me as I read it. Other times, like most of last week, I felt no peace nor sense any sort of calm.
Lately, the more news I read, the less calm I felt. The same thing started to happen every time I logged into Facebook too. Something had to give, so I put myself in time out - time out from the internet.
I also did something else. In stepping away from the computer and the internet, I stepped away from writing. I love to write, but I have not been inspired to write anything helpful, kind or useful for myself or for others. I'd like to, and hope to again soon.
I'm not completely offline obviously, but I am finally doing something that I've been meaning to do for a long time: limiting how much time I spend on the computer. I actually got a head start in stepping away this past weekend. Instead of reading every single article and blog post about autism and vaccines and trying to come up with writing topics about each, I went outside. I hung out with friends. I explored a new area. Can I just tell you how good it feels to be among the living, the breathing and the actively doing crowd? It was so refreshing! So was a song that I had forgotten about.
I started to sing Peace is Flowing Like a River before bed last night. I haven't heard the song in a very long time, but I'll take having it cross my mind as a good thing.
A forced time out is just what I needed. I'm not sure how long I'll stay away, but hitting the reset button has been productive. I like to be productive, but I also like to feel peace. When things are more peaceful, and when my heart is in the right place again, I'll get back to more online activities. I'll check in with my friends again. I'll start to read articles and blogs about autism and vaccines too. I'll spend some time brainstorming what I've read, and I'll look forward to writing again.
Until then....xo, Cat