I crave church.
I crave the reverence.
I crave the spiritual hug I feel as I enter the sanctuary.
Maybe that's because that's where things are quieter (than my home and my children). Maybe that because that's where things are more peaceful (than my home and some of my thoughts). Maybe that's because that's where I finally stop and sit and reflect and feel like I can breathe again.
Some people start their day praying or meditating in the comfort of their home. I find myself rattling off a few prayers as I wake and continue them as I race out the door. I know that's not the best way to pray. My prayers are rushed. They're squeezed in. They're on repeat and not as holy and wholesome as I'd like them to be.
I had the chance to get to daily Mass last week thanks to my parents. With all how incredibly busy and stressful some of my days can be, it was exhilarating to be able to go to church with them on a Tuesday in the middle of the day. And now that I know the Mass schedule, I can go every Tuesday. I can go on Monday and Wednesday and Thursday and Friday, too! I don't know if I will be able to go each day, but I am hoping and praying that I can get to daily Mass at least twice a week.
Sitting quietly, reflecting on the daily readings, offering prayers for friends and relatives - I can do all of that from home (or in my car as I often do as I race out for the day). But I don't like to do that. I never have liked that, and now that Mass is an option, I won't have to rush through any reflections, readings, or prayers like I have been. I know I won't get there each week day, but I can slow down a tad and remember to use a daily devotional prayer book to guide me through the day when I am unable to go.
I don't know every prayer there is to know and say, so using a guide is a good idea. I was reminded of prayer that I hadn't heard in a really long time when I was with my parents last week. As daily Mass ended, we said the Angelus. I've only known it to be said at noon, but traditionally, I read that it has also been said at 6am and 6pm. It's a beautiful prayer and one that I know that I can add to my day. It's a reminder...
To be faithful as Mary was
To be humble as Mary was
And to say yes to God as Mary did
Being faithful (when life is overwhelming), being humble (when life is unkind), and saying yes (when it's easier to say no) - none of that is easy for me, but with God's help, and through Mary's intercession, I know that anything is possible.